[That's actually really easy to accept. It's not like he hasn't dealt with it before.]
Sucks to be him.
[Priorities. Ragging on the alternate him is important. Clearly he's the superior him. Once that's out of his system he can focus on the actually important part.
He thinks about it for a minute. Where to even start...?]
Why didn't you tell me? Back in Gulch, you let me keep thinking I was a ghost.
Because getting into one bit of it would have meant getting into the whole thing. And you were happy thinking you were human. I didn't want to shatter that.
[ She glances at her glass. He's going to want more of an explanation than that. She picks it up, takes a swig, and then grits her teeth as she sets it down. ]
I should have known, before I did, I think. But it took someone defecting and leaving me evidence of everything that was happening for me to realize it.
I don't know how important it is to work that out, exactly.
[ A sip of coffee. ]
I will say that when I showed up in the Gulch and you were calling me your ex, that kind of surprised me. But I think that came from how I tried to rescue you—I told you we used to be together.
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Like I'm really any fucking better.
[Emotions are so damn difficult sometimes. It took him years and legit dying to actually get around to saying it.]
And I'm probably never going to apologize for anything ever again. So enjoy it.
[He moves to cover his grin by taking a drink.]
I should get some ice for the coffee.
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I'll remember that.
[ She glances at her coffee when he says that. ]
Get something to eat while you're at it. An appetizer or something.
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[He raises an eyebrow before standing up. Well, he was planning to go up anyway, might as well.]
Anything in particular you want?
[You know, since he doesn't actually know what she likes. Or what they even serve here.]
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Something that'd be good with mocha, I don't know. Cinnamon bites or something like that.
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Sounds good.
[He'll even come back with some pretzels for a bit of salt to balance all the sweet.]
Ho-ly crap, you would not believe how expensive all this was. Next time you're buying.
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Are you kidding me? It's cheaper to have this stuff at home.
[ But she'll reach for the treats, popping a cinnamon bite in her mouth and gathering up a couple of pretzels before he even has a chance to react. ]
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[He helps himself to a couple of the cinnamon things before adding some ice to his coffee. Just to make sure that he actually gets some.]
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It's capitalism. They're trying to run a business, here.
[ She takes the rest of the ice cubes and dumps them in her coffee. ]
You settling in all right? Not here—in the body.
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[It's great when it works in his favor... otherwise it's just a pain in the ass.]
It took me a couple days to get the hang of shaving primitive style. But otherwise, it's pretty much how I remember it.
[Except the trouble sleeping part. He swirls the ice in his coffee before taking a drink.]
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I noticed.
[ At the latter statement she tilts her head. ]
I need to tell you something. You were in that other place with me, on the Moira, or at least, some other version of you was.
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I was?
[He swallows thickly. Fuck. Is there something else he doesn't remember?]
I don't... are you sure it was me?
[He shrugs.]
Yeah, stupid question... I mean-you would know, right...
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[ She's apparently unperturbed by it. She shrugs. ]
You didn't have this body. You had a different one.
Anyway, ask me whatever you want to ask me about the emp or any of that because I've already worked it out with you once before.
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[That's actually really easy to accept. It's not like he hasn't dealt with it before.]
Sucks to be him.
[Priorities. Ragging on the alternate him is important. Clearly he's the superior him. Once that's out of his system he can focus on the actually important part.
He thinks about it for a minute. Where to even start...?]
Why didn't you tell me? Back in Gulch, you let me keep thinking I was a ghost.
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Because getting into one bit of it would have meant getting into the whole thing. And you were happy thinking you were human. I didn't want to shatter that.
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[With a whole life's worth of memories and a body to go with it.]
What about you? Did you always know? About being an AI.
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No; no, I didn't.
[ She glances at her glass. He's going to want more of an explanation than that. She picks it up, takes a swig, and then grits her teeth as she sets it down. ]
I should have known, before I did, I think. But it took someone defecting and leaving me evidence of everything that was happening for me to realize it.
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Why would you have known? I mean, people don't usually just wake up one day and say: "Hey, maybe I'm not human."
[Who wants to be a calculator? He chews thoughtfully before asking his next question.]
Did they- I assume they gave you memories too.
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I think they took some. Otherwise they let me put my own pieces together.
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pfft. Think I took care of that part on my own.
[He focuses on the beer in front of him.]
I remember growing up. Meeting you. A whole lifetime of memories.
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I know.
But Church...that wasn't you.
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[He sighs and runs his hands through his hair. When he speaks again, his voice is softer.]
I know.
[As tempted as he is to finish the beer, he picks up the coffee.]
How do you deal with it? Remembering things that never happened?
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Well. I don't know that I handle it very well. I try to do what I can to fix things, but it hasn't worked.
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[He knows it not a clean line. No solid division between truth and fiction.]
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I don't know how important it is to work that out, exactly.
[ A sip of coffee. ]
I will say that when I showed up in the Gulch and you were calling me your ex, that kind of surprised me. But I think that came from how I tried to rescue you—I told you we used to be together.
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[He shrugs noncommittally. Aren't memories supposed to be an integral part of who you are?]
Well... I guess that technically counts?
[He gives her a wan smile.]
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